Below are the 5 most recent journal entries recorded in soneechka's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, October 11th, 2006
1:17 am	Home One day I know We'll find a place of hope Just hold on to me Just hold on to me Walk tight, one line You're wanted this time There's no one to blame Just hold on to me (Come on my love) And I'm right on time And the birds keep singing And you're right on line And the bells keep ringing And the battle is won And the planes keep winging And I'm right on time And the girl keeps singing One day they'll be a place for us I walk and I wade Through full lands and lonely I stumble, I stumble With you I wait To be born again With love comes the day Just hold on to me (Come on my love) And I'm right on time And the birds keep singing And you're right on line And the bells keep ringing One day they'll be a place for us And the battle is won And the planes keep winging And I'm right on time And the girl keeps singing One day they'll be a place for us Now is the time To follow through To read the signs Now the message sent Let's bring it to it's final end And I'm right on time And the birds keep singing And you're right on line And the bells keep ringing One day they'll be a place for us And the battle is won And the planes keep winging And I'm right on time And the girl keeps singing One day they'll be a place for us One day I Know They'll be A place Called Home PJ Harvey I hate when he has to leave. Current Mood: mellow (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 7th, 2006
7:13 pm	It's Been a While It's been a while since I last posted...not that I have written much to begin with. It's strange reading the only three entries I wrote. The first one...was a year and a half ago...I was still with Sam. Strange to read about so long time. Not that there was a mention of him. I was def at the point where I was contemplating breaking up with him. I am definately over the relationship and I know that I would never want to go back to him. But I think it's still kind of sad to reflect on something that took up 3 1/2 years of my life...3 1/2...such a long time... And let's reflect the two other entries...that was the most ridiculous situation I have been in. But I still want to rent "Man of the Year" when it comes out on video...there is no way in hell I am paying $10 for that garbage just becaue HE is in it. Him and his tiny role...hah Let's get back to now. Now I am in love. Love love love love. He's great. He treats me like a Queen and always makes sure I feel wonderful and happy. Could I ask for more? Not to mention I love his family. They are so cute. So overall things are fabulous... Song of the mood: Ride a White Horse. I guess I am all Goldfrappy because I really want to go see them in a few weeks...that is if my sketching "nazi" professor lets me out early enough.. Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Monday, December 26th, 2005
3:08 am	Don't cry over split milk before it spills This is what my best friend Debra just told me. Why am I crying over someone who has no rejected me yet? Maybe because I feel like I have already been rejected. Maybe I feel it will prepare me for when I do get rejected. Who knows what is going to happen. Sometimes you just have a feeling that something you don't like is going to happen. Or sometimes you just feel like it already happened. Am I being a drama queen? I sometimes feel that way. I feel bad for complaining to all over my friends over my trivial problems. But I guess I just have trouble dealing with situations like this. I give away my heart way to easy. And somehow I always end up getting hurt. I wish that someone could give me the advice that I am looking for. I am not sure if it's possible though. And I'd like to think of it this way "He's geographically undesireable". That is the bottom line. "Life is like tea-sometimes you'll reach the end no matter how long you nurse it, and you'll have a bunch of gross clumpy stuff at the bottom" Current Mood: crushed (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 24th, 2005
6:17 pm	Polar Feelings I am sad. Well, I am almost always sad...pathetic. I can't stop thinking about him. What do you do when you make such a great connection with someone one day and then all of a sudden you don't hear from them? And I wonder was it something that I did wrong? I don't know. I was just being me I told him, in a state lacking all self confidence. Where has my confidence gone? Maybe he is the one who is just as fucked up as me? I know that everyone has issues. I have issues, you have issues... I hate getting emotionally attached. It happens with everyone I am involved with...assholes, "perfect guys", girls...anyone. And why does this happen to me? I seem to have a lot of trouble reaching an understanding. WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY Why do I keep putting myself in situations where I have no chance of a realistic relationship? And I keep telling myself that he found me. He found me, he called me every day. He came to NY to see me. We spent a great weekend together...so what happened? And it's like one minute I tell myself I am not ready for a relationship right now. But the other minute I tell myself that I just need some love. I want to be loved. "Hey girl You’ve got to take this moment Then let it slip away Let go of complicated feelings Then there’s no price to pay" ~Depeche Mode This song describes how I wish I could be...I think the best medicine for me right now is to stay away from love?? Someone give me some advice. Please. Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
Monday, March 28th, 2005
9:17 pm	My first time So I finally lost my livejournal virginity. I am exhausted...I got no sleep last night. I stayed up watching some lifetime movie while I was doing my sportswear homework. Doesn't that sound like fun? And why lifetime? Because Sunday nights are the worst! There is never a descent movie on tv. And today was a lovely Monday. I had my usual Sociology class. It was ok. Our professor let us out early like usual. I had nothing to do so I went to the cafeteria. I saw one of my classmates (this Russian deaf woman named Oksana). It was nice to see someone. We wrote back and forth on papers I found in my bag. Then I went to Calvin Klein for some bitch work. Well it wasn't that bad. I specked a bit and entered the info into WebPDM. Now I am home trying to do some homework...I cannot concentrate!! Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)